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ok you got triggered by somthing and you hurt yourself - you are not disgusting - you did the best you could - the thing to do now is NOT beat yourself up about it - that will only prlong the cycle and make you want to hurt more - YOU DID THE BEST YOU COULD DO AT THE TIME - and as my T would and did say to me often lol you can do better next time.

Do you know what triggered you?

Can you get yourself an emergency box for next time - fill it with ideas of what to do instead of hurting yourself - print out the stickies at the top of the forum - reading them through can somtimes help to slow things down - pit pictures in of places you love or people you love - happy places you like to go to - a book to read - a dvd - comedy - chick flick whatever will occupy you and make you feel brighter -

I ahve one - i covered it with sparkly glitter inside and out - it is so bright its glary - but i dont care - you need somthing to breach the darkness - and the box cansomtimes do that

try drawing lines where you cut and pretending thats what you are doing - write down every word that comes into your head and then tear it up - - please dont hurt yourself again - come back here and talk - go to support chat - ring a friend - family member - help line - just try not to hurt yourself please

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