Ok, so i made a phonecall this morning to register with my local doctors surgery. I have an appointment for Wednesday, but that will only be with a health advisor so i'm guessing after that i will have to make another appointment to see an actual doctor. That will probably be another long wait because that's the norm' with the health service here.

Sigh.
The longer i wait for this, the harder i know it's gonna be to tell someone.

On the plus side - i am going to try my best to get through today without pulling hy hair. I'm taking some of the advice from forums on here, and making sure my hands are occupied when i'm sitting on the sofa etc. When i try not to pull my hair, i tend to do other stuff instead like click my teeth, pick my skin or fidget.. so i guess the pulling of the hair is the easy option otherwise i go off on a fidget tangent which makes me feel really anxious.

Regardless i am really going to try. I think i'll feel really good if i can accomplish it.
I'm working today so that is usually a good distraction. I will go into what i do for a living another time maybe, i don't think many folk on here would approve of it.
I have to pay the rent on Friday, so i'm working non-stop up until then, maybe that's why i've felt so anxious these last couple of days. I had the most amazing dream last night, which was really outlandish and surreal.. but it felt good during. I woke up with some barnet though, i mean a proper bed head lol. I looked like some singer from one of those poodle-haired rock bands from the 80's. It was pretty funny.

I feel pretty good today though
Hope everyone else is too.

Gretchen xxx