((((((Tree)))) My dear Tree, I wish I could be there to give you a big hug and tell you it will be alright. I know you are scared, I know you are afraid of the pain. You are so close to t, and you know how trauma work goes for you. This October stuff is part of you and what needs to happen. In its own time. Trust t and trust your body's way of telling you what you need. If you need to work slowly on October, go slow. What would you tell me if I wrote just what you did?

Deep breath.....go slow...you have 90 minutes, you know you dont need to jump into everything. Go small bit by small bit. Pushing yourself may cause you to pull back or dissociate. Working on your October triggers may take a while, well past October, and thats OK.

I love you, dear friend. Please let me/us all know how todays session goes.