I have been out of work now since the 21st and new to the meds and counseling. The meds have me like a zombie and I am so unfunctionable and unorganized.
I am still having axiety everytime I think about work. I am ashamed and embarrassed and this is supposed to be the time for me to get well but this is bringing on more stress and bad feelings and making me ashamed to leave my house more then ever!! It is real bad!! It is not something I have been able to control and it is spinning out of control.
I can't even believe I am able to type this or even join in this group it is so bad but it is the easiest thing I can do to be part of society and feel human and I am forcing myself to do it.
I have not been able to do anything..everytime I try I get side tracked and just sit there with my mind going a million miles per hour.
The PSTD counseling has me just trying not to think and when I go I leave and I have such a nervous feeling I tremble and shake so bad my jaw chatters very hard and I can hardly walk!
I don't know what kind of advice I am asking I am just getting it out. I guess like a diary before I don't let it out and it builds up inside with everything else.
Thanks