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Originally Posted by Amanda_1981
I'm 28 years old and have never been in a serious relationship before. My longest relationship lasted 3 months and that was over 10 years ago! The last time I was even with a guy was over a year ago and it only lasted just over a month. I'm beginning to think something is seriously wrong with me. I think I start to panic once things become serious and I get scared and push them away. But I don't want to do that anymore. I want a serious relationship. I want to get married and have kids. I don't want to be scared anymore. In the past, I dated guys for all the wrong reasons... out of depression mainly, which had disastrous results. Part of still has self esteem issues that I need to work on, but I do know that I want to be in a relationship and I don't want to be scared anymore. I want a life.. a future.. a husband.. children. How do you know when you're ready? Where does everyone find all these great guys? Sometimes I think no guy will ever want me because I've gained a lot of weight from the meds I take. I just hope there's a good guy out there somewhere who accepts me for who I am. Any idea how to find him?  |
Some would say (not here, but some would) that really, I have no right replying to this since I met/got together with my husband (D) when I was about a month from turning 22.
That being said, I have been with him for 12 years now. When we met, he was 30, we had our first daughter when he was 32 and second when he was 36.
If I had it to do all over again, I wish I had been older. I was 24 when my first daughter was born, 28 when my second daughter was born. I would not give them up for anything in the world!
It wasn't until almost 4 years ago when D announced to the whole family (the girls were 6 and 2 at the time) that we were getting divorced. I had been with him for so long and from such a young age I was scared to find out who I was without him.
Now D and I have stayed together and have MANY issues to work out, which we are doing through counseling. But I discovered that past January not only how strong I am, but WHO I am. I am worth loving, even by myself, and know who I am. It is this strength that I am working through tough, TOUGH issues with him, but I would have liked to have had that all before we had gotten involved.
I don't know if this helps or not, but life is not a race, it is for living. Be ok with yourself and the rest will follow!
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