I am totally stressed out as usual. I have 2 daycare interviews this week. I know I should be thrilled and I am deep down inside.

If someone or all of you can knock some sense into my wee brain regarding the following I would GREATLY appreciate it more than you will ever know:

1. I have to get a criminal records check. I have never been arrested or convicted of any crime(s). The closest I have came to breaking the law is getting two red light speeding tickets. And when I was manic/psychotic in 2006 and hospitalized I was fined $265 for trespassing but the crown prosecuters office waved the charges since I had a doctor's letter explaining in detail my state of mind when I supposedly trespassed on hospital grounds. A friend of mine who worked in the legal system said that the fine amounted to a parking ticket not a criminal offense.

2. I have to get a child welfare check to see if I have ever been investigated for harming a child(ren). I have never intentionally hurt any children nor would I ever do so. I would rather harm myself than harm an innocent child(ren). It has been 3 years since I have worked with children and in those 3 years no one has contacted me (i.e. police, child protection services/child welfare, or social services). I think it sounds logical that if something did happen I would have been contacted by now? They wouldn't just have it "on file" and not notify me...etc?

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And I am pouting like a child because I have to update my CPR and First Aid certificate. I don't want to have to get up early spend all day in class learning about things that probably will never happen. In all my childcare experiences all I ever had to do was clean cuts/wounds and put a band aid on or give the child a hug and some comforting words of support.

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