I feel like a ***** for saying so, but I'm feeling like the support I'm getting is waning. I have SO many people who are SO supportive of me, yet I'm still getting this feeling.

I feel like I want to SI, but at the same time, I feel like doing so will disappoint the support that I do have. I'm trying my alternative coping methods, and they're working for the moment, but I fear that they won't help me hold off forever.

I don't know...I'm just a big mess of feelings right now.