I just realised why i am in so much emotional pain all the time....I never stick up for myself. I'm always looking at things from the other person's perspective.,..and i never defend myself. I have needs and things that I want...its not a one way street...and I felt like the only way for me to have friends or a loving bf was to always worry abou their needs...but no...they need to recognise what I want....I just need to figure out what that is...I need to be true to myself....that might take awhile lol