No matter what you do or if you try to talk it out with people who do not understand your situation, it hard to feel better. Sometimes, actually most of the time my friends, boyfriend, and family do not understand and when there is no one to understand you find way to vent. Whether it’s purging your food, cutting yourself or overdosing. This is way more than people can understand. I can’t say that I know what you’re going through but I want to help. Before you think about hurting yourself, you need to understand that it is hard to deal with mental issues and there is help! Let me know if the email scattered and feel free to email me prior to doing something harmful.!



Sorry I haven't been around in ages. I wrote a huge reply, got interrupted, had a major blast out on someone, getting really angry and upset and actually very nearly cried in front of someone I've promised never to cry in front of when I've spoken to him about much more difficult stuff.

I'm just finding everyting impossible at the moment and I can't honestly do this anymore. Everything's just getting worse. Arguments with Connor, with friends, with this voice in my stupid skull that won't leave me alone, me being stressed and now making myself very ill. I've started purging a lot recently too which is something I promised myself I'd never do and no matter how much I try to distract myself from it, I can't just not do it

I have cut, I've tried overdosing, but been caught and I just can't stand being in the skin I'm in anymore. Connor keeps complaining that I'm losing weight too rapidly, saying that I'm at a perfectly healthy weight now, a low enough weight and he doesn't want me losing anymore, but I just won't listen which I know is dangerous and stupid.

I tried talking to my dr about it, but she just seemed unfazed, so I'm just hiding away in my new flat doing amounts of sit ups that not even people in the army do, doing weights, walking everywhere with an incredibly sore knee that I keep ignoring.

Gaaaaahhhhh! Just wish I'd go away. [/quote]