I can see that you feel some obligation to him due to your belief that you gave him HPV. Apparently I'm not up to date on the time frames for HPV to "go away", and I did not realize that you could have the virus and still have clean paps and what not. In short, I don't know much about it. I see how you are feeling. I'm not saying that this is how you have to feel. Similar desires out of life do help a relationship. As you seem to know, there are a lot of rock band performer wannabe's out there, and not many turn into "stars". You'll have to have some type of mutual lifestyle in order to live together. Jobs are a necessity, too! Best of Luck ~ billieJ