Thank You SKY

I think for me the most difficult part of the birthday as far as emotional goes is not the age, I already feel 300 years old half the time

Seriously, I feel it is all of the compliments, gifts, treats and 'special things' which come along with the birthday, all in which are very diffifult to accept for me. I can give a gift or cake with no problem only when it is reversed, flooding me of emotion is at times distressing.

I think I dont really feel so much as this say at Christmas because everyone in my building or family are all getting theses 'special things' only when alone "my" own day is really rough to get through.