Hi my name is pam, my actions are a product of Bipolar. I can't hol a job, friend oa even boyfriend and exhusband. I feel so guity and I know when i find a guy he need to be stable becuase I am not. I now know that I need to lean on other. I am on a low and it wd trigged by feeling useless. I am adopted and my past dictated the out come. The low will go away, but because of my age it getting more hard to handle,