I'm so sorry your feelin so bad. I self harm an have done so since i was 9, i'm now 25 but thats because i've only jus started to get proper help for my problems. You need to go and talk to your doctor! Pls do this. Is there any particular reason why you feel so down that you have to do this? I hope you can get some help for your problems. Take care an remember you are not alone here! :-)