I need to get this off my chest and need some feedback, PLEASE...
A little over a month ago, I found out my husband was cheating on me. (Married 14 years, 2 young kids). Initially, I wanted a divorce but have since calmed down and we are now in therapy to figure out if this can be worked out.
My problem...My best friend has now told me she cannot remain friends with me because I am choosing to "remain a doormat" to my husband by trying to work things out.
But, there is a little more to it than that...
The week after I found out about my husband, I went over to my friend's house to escape. She and her family were getting ready to have dinner and she insisted I stay. I had taken some anxiety med and then they fixed me a few drinks. In the course of the evening, I made a suggestive comment to her husband about maybe needing to even the score with my hubby and asked her hubby if he were interested (my friend was sitting right there at the table when this happened and the kids were not there). I was NOT serious, they knew I was a little messed up from the drinks and xanax, VERY UPSET over my situation, etc. Nothing was said about this for a month....until the other day when she told me her husband has forbidden her to remain friends with me due to my proposition.
I have apologized (I honestly didn't even remember the proposition part - just the comment about perhaps needing to get even with my husband by sleeping with someone).
I accept full responsibility for my mistake of making that stupid comment, I have sworn up and down that I was not serious (If I were, would I really proposition her hubby in FRONT OF HER????), I accept that I may lose my friendship with her...is there anything more I can do?
I am devastated over the mess with my husband and now to lose my best friend....I just don't know what to do.