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I think the "blank slate" theory attempts to get the client to reexperience past feelings, but that inevitably the past mixes with the present as well. It's some complex blend, but often you may react to certain situations and feelings in the way that you have in the past. But I really think that all of those very same answers about yourself can be found in non psychodynamic therapy if you take a look at your relationship with your therapist. I'm still so amazed and very fascinated with what I discovered about myself by exploring my feelings for former T. Those feelings really are a blueprint of me. I feel almost awed by it.
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BH- This is so true. I cant hide from my t and from myself. The feelings I transfer onto her reveal so much. I have ftt on monday and I am feelings a little bit....something...uncomfortable(???) not sure what the feelings is....to read this and reveal so much of myself in just one session. This letter is a blueprint of me. But also so much about how she can help me is in that letter. I feel vulnerable reading it to her. When I used to read things I wrote to dt, I used to edit as I read. I dont want to edit with ftt. It would be good for her to see "me".
Sannah- You mean she brings up past feelings and present feelings. What is the difference between past and present feelings? Childhood issues and ??? I dont quite understand.
Tree- I know people who have seen her and didnt like her. And I read some real bad reviews of her. What I dont understand is why I stayed. I saw all of the same things they did. They thought she was distracted, preoccupied and mean.She was. I knew that. And I stayed? I thought she would change herself with me,
I would get her to be nice AT LAST. Scary.....
I am going to do my best to put it out of my mind that she would judge me. I made my references to csa very general since I dont want to go there yet with her. I would like to feel safer. Does that make sense? Or am I wasting precious time not tlaking about that yet? Im not sure.