wow....i feel for you....i know it's a nightmare to have trust issues...infidelity is horribly traumatic...i think in my case, it has traumatized me beyond repair...i wonder if i will ever trust again....lately i have been thinking how much i wish i could go back and try harder to prevent putting myself in a position to be betrayed...i had no idea how hard it would be to deal with and how much damage it would do to me...

i really hope that you find out that it is innocent...my husband doesnt erase his texts and has let me check his phone whenever i feel the need to to alleviate my fears...he was willing to do this for me.....maybe you could talk about this with him and see if you could start to rebuild your trust there.......it's a start...