Miss A
I will answer you if you will respect the fact that in this anonymity we are assumed to be peers. I can only answer from my own accessible current experience. Yes I have had the experience of nonfeeling. It was very difficult to describe to the school psychologist whom I had to sneak around to see once before my abusers were tipped off and it cost me big time. Here in this forum you can exchange and accept some info and i assume you have access to a school counselor. Perhaps you ought to try and write for them how you might describe your current nonfeeling in an effort to help yourself. I am assuming here thast you are not under any sort of cultish ritualistic sadistic arrest as you seem to have much access tyo being online. Is it possible that unless there is a lot of noise and cofusion stirred up amongst the good people here that there is not enought feeling to borrow or be with so during quiet times it seems like nonfeeling rather than the peace which it could be?
Good luck with this.
Respectfully,