Thank you for takin the time to respond. I try not to drink much anymore an haven't touched cocaine for about 2 months. my last 'high' was a couple of weeks ago an what really concerned me was the overwhelming urge i had to kill myself even tho i was overly elated an full of life! I get so confused an am now strugglin to cope with all the emotions an the highs an lows i'm experiencing! :-( i don't know if i'm coming or going half the time!