((((((((((anxietygirl))))))))))

it sounds like an awful situation you are in. i'm a christian too and i am no fan of divorce but you have the right in God's eyes to divorce him. you might also consider just separating to give you some peace by having him out of your house. it does sound like it would be worth the money you might have to pay to be free of him. if you divorce him it sounds like he may find someone else to marry and support him so that may not be as big a concern as you're thinking. take care.