Hi Larakeziah!

Boy, it sure sounds like you have been busy with all of these different feelings and behaviors. It sounds like you are having mixed episodes which is what I have. I can feel great and real down at the same time and then flip flop right out of it. Sometimes antidepressants can push one into a mania which has happened with me several times so my doc has to watch me with the amount of antidepressant. What you are experiencing is not abnormal, but indeed very scary and something you want to take care of. Can you write down all of these things on a notepad and bring it into your doctor to share this with him/her? I think it would be a good idea. I care about you and want to see you feeling stable!

Susan