I want to scream. I want to jump up and down throw some breakable glass, pull my hair and just scream. Scream so loud and so long i loose my voice for awhile. I want to punch something. Im so sick of this!!! Ive gone through fear, sadness, desperation, anxiety, frusteration and now its time for all out anger i guess. I just want to know whats wrong! Why is it that difficult?!?!?! WHAT MAKES ME DIFFERENT FROM ANY OTHER PATIENT! Why is MY body so hard to understand?! Why is it ME that gets the run around! I HATE DOCTORS! I HATE MY BODY! I hate not knowing! I hate feeling so horribly sick and then get one day that i feel remotely ok which makes me feel so crazy and so hypochrondical and then it lasts a whopping day then go back feeling so physically sick that i cant be a hypochondriac. I DONT GET IT! UUUUGGGGHHHHH!!! I DONT GET MY BODY! I DONT GET DOCTORS! I just want help. I just want to feel better.