dear marjan, theo, perfect and pamela...and also inny thank you so much for sharing your insights and also the advice....
really i've reading all your posts again and again...all of you....

i'm glad that i'm not the only person on earth having that kind of problem..thank you everyone.. (((((((everyone))))))

even I'm no longer with my bf but there are many things I can learn from you ppl..
right now I'm just letting myself being healed...not by trying to see other guy though..(i'm just not ready yet for that)..
i'm the kind who likes to work work and work to forget the pain..
the lowest state has already passed...so i guess it's time for me to be kind to myself...
by not letting this breaking up stuff hurt me more and more everyday...

time does heal the wounds..marjan..

once again thank you everybody..
take care y'all