I'm so sorry you're hurting.

Please, you shouldn't pretend that nothing happened... acknowledging pain can give one a sort of-- value.

I used to think that pretending it didn't hurt would make it better--- but it just denied my very being.

I believe it's a very good sign that you "can't " pretend that nothing happened-- IMO- it shows you are valuing yourself-- that's a great step!

Nightdream-- you are such a very kind, caring and wonderful soul-- I'm glad you are putting a voice to your feelings! We're here --- please keep posting!!

Take care Nightdream

Mandy