Hi. I know that I have issues with it also; maybe not in the same manner but same rooted problem. I have been this way FOREVER it seems like. I KNOW it is due to low self-esteem, confidence. There have been times that I felt a "false" confidence and was able to carry it for some time; but like now, when things aren't all going the right way, that false sense disappears and in a real fast way.

Now, I don't outwardly react vocally, and go so far as to try to not be transparent at all. I would certainly not ever let him know I was jealous. I am afraid he knows, but I do try extremely hard to hide it.

BOTTOM LINE: it is unnecessary, unhealthy, self-destructive, and useless. I don't want to be this way anymore! When we find the answer to going back and fixing it, then moving forward in a new tone can we let each other know how we did it ?

Any help fixing all of us like this would be great !! Thanks