Yes I feel hesitant to discuss what happened pretty much everywhere except with my therapist & psychiatrist. In August this year I was in a psychiatric hospital for evaluation of what appeared to be neuro problem or medication side effects. I was in group therapy & was hesitant to discuss the shooting because I didn't think anybody there could relate to me. But the therapist encouraged me to talk about my "issues" so I did. One girl remarked, "Well everybody makes mistakes". I was not clear if she meant my BF made a [fatal] mistake or if I had made the mistake when I killed him. I wanted to shout, "I didn't make a mistake! I am still alive"! But I didn't want to upset anyone else so I ended up staying silent & I was the one who was upset because I felt misunderstood.