i know how u feel so much. we have a baseball bat & a deck down by the river & there have been a couple of days ive just wanted to go down there & start just pounding stuff as hard as i can. btw the ballbat is so shiny i dont think its ever seen daylight. anyway i told t about this & he seemed really concerned cuz im such a type b. its unreal the things ive contemplated. my walks i do havent even been any stress relievers so ive started joggin to disperse all this built up crap before i really go off the deep end. right now my hubbys runnin around sayin no peace no peace no peace in this fn house my 12 year olds been runnin with her friends for 2 days & comes home & thinks everything should revolve around her my 2 year old is just bein a 2 year old not to mention my preteen queen is hovering over my shoulder tryin to read this & i just wanna go down & jump in the river not to drown myself i know none of them can get to me out there cuz theyre too chicken **** to jump in that cold *** river in the pitch black. i need a cigarette. what i really want is about 3mg of klonopin & some flexeril huh nice to dream well back to reality pray 4 me oh u 4got i rolled my foot so hard during the summer & lately its been feelin more pain than ever & i would not know what its like to go one day without a headache with my veins in my head poppin out