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I dont know where to put this....I read all the threads about attachment and i can relate to all of them...it makes me want to scream because my attachment is not with my therapist...its with my tennis coach....Therapists understand the processes of attachment and the way to handle them....I try so hard to explain my feelings to my coach and i think it makes her uncomfortable...she already things im unstable as it is...how the hell do u explain to someone that their approval means the world to you.....or that u think about them alllll the time and u get jealous of every single person that gets their attention besides you....or how, the moments u get with them can either make ur day absolutely fabulous orr ruin it by oneee little thing that they do...I have tried so hard to let her in...but she doesnt understand it and i dont know how else to explain it....the emotions attached to this are SO strong....i seek negative attention from her...ill act out like a 5 year old to have her come over and console me....I went to counseling with her just so i could get 5 mintues before and after to be alone with her...shes everything to me...,,,But, should i just keep it to myself....thats so hard because if i text her and her answer isnt what i want...i get really upset....then i have to see her hours later and she doesnt understand why i cant look her in the eye......
i just need advicee i suppose
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