Hi

I woke up this morning feeling nervous and on edge. I also had a mild sinus-type headache but I also sleep with a lot of different animals and have all kinds of allergy/sinus problems, anxiety, OCD, IBS, etc. In other words, I'm a wreck!. My anxiety has gotten to the point where I have been drinking a 1/3'rd of a fifth of whiskey every almost every day just to cope (big mistake, I know - but it helps a LOT!). Yesterday, I did'nt drink (withdrawal?) and I took an Atarax (a powerful antihistamine) before bedtime and then skipped my usual dose of Lorazepam this morning. At about noon this afternoon I started drinking my whiskey and coke again and I've had two drinks so far.

My anxiety is better now (although I know I should'nt be using alcohol to relieve it). I called the pharmacist (the nutty one) and told her that I had consumed 2 glasses of whiskey and coke and she was like "ok what's your point???" (real rude-like) and I said "well, I was wondering if it would be safe to take a..." and before I even got the words out, she said "yeah" and I was like "how can I even take your advice when you did'nt even allow me to finish my sentence?". I mean, maybe I was getting ready to ask her if it would be safe to drink alcohol with rat poison or something. Would her answer still be "yeah"?. I could'nt believe her apathy, rudeness and lack of regard for my health.

Anyway, my room mate is always calling me "mental", the pharmacist acts like she could care less wether I live or die and noone else seems to care or even understand. Are we still living in the dark ages in the U.S.?. I'm sure if I offered someone a million dollars (if I had a million dollars!) everyone would be rushing like crazy to "cure" me.

- GreyGoose