Sunday, I went over to a friend's home for dinner (kinda of a Thanksgiving Day dinner). I was told that there would be other people at the dinner. When I arrived I was the only guest. I didn't know what to do so I just tried to force myself to be happy and polite. And do what my former psychologist told me to do ask them questions if you have a hard time making conversations. She said that ppl love to talk about themselves. So that is what I did.

These friends of mine are 70 years old and 73 years old. And the wife had asked me what my fave things were to eat in an e-mail a couple of weeks ago. I told her Indian and Thai. So she made an Indian dinner. I was so amazed that she would go to all that effort just for me!

I had a good time! I just don't enjoy family holiday dinners since my mom isn't alive. And I miss her like crazy during the holidays.

I had a rough Saturday night I didn't feel well at all. I think it was just anxiety and stress. That night I was considering calling and saying I was too sick to come to dinner on Sunday. And when I was at their home I was like OMG if I had canceled dinner with them they would have went to all that effort for nothing. I felt so bad. But thankful that I got up the motivation to go to the dinner.

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On Oct.13th I have a typing test at university. I have to be able to type 30 words per minute with a maxium of 6 errors for 5 minutes. I can type fairly well without looking at the keyboard. I went to this one online website that times you and I did fairly well. Then I Googled for another typing test site and I did poorly. Now I am stressed out.