Thanks for your replies.

My Ex came back to late for me to want to be with her anymore. She hurt me more than anybody in this world has and that can forgiven over time, but can never be forgotten. I love her still, but everything about her turns me off now as far as a person.

I know the kind of person I want to be with the rest of my life. The two women I mentioned above were those types. Sex with them actually had some feeling behind it. Our cuddling on the couch, walking holding hands put me in awesome moods. Felt like the king of the world again with each one. Which is why I don't know why I keep pulling away. One instant I could picture a longterm thing with either of them and be happy. And then the next I'm no longer answering the phone calls/emails.

I think it boils down to myself not wanting to be hurt again. Of course I know there is only one way to find out and that is by trying.

I also find trusting to be a hard issue with me now.
Perhaps I just need some more time.