Hi onlymedid, i'm sorry for what you are going thru. I often have similar thoughts, like if i'm crossin the street i often think 'what if i jus stop right now' when there is a car coming or i think 'i really wanna jus walk straight out in to all that traffic' i can't control these thoughts i jus have to try not to act on them. I know its difficult but try an distract yourself from the thoughts your havin by listening to music whilst your driving. I hope you can work through this! Take care