Hello & Welcome, CK23!

It's no fun being resilient if you're still miserable. I'm not much of a relationship/friendship advice person, so take the following suggestion with a grain of salt: If reaching out for friends hasn't worked for you, try not reaching out.

I know, that's counterintuitive. The suggestion is based on my long-term observation that some of the best things in life (friends, for example) are frequently acquired when you're looking for or doing something else.

Aside your friendship difficulties, do you have pursuits or activities that really excite you, that engage your spirit no matter what other people think about them? Those pursuits and the effects they have on you may draw others into your life far better than trying to get into others' lives.

Wishing you fulfillment & success!