Thanks Everyone for your replies. I have been able to admit what is going on with the people we were going to go see on vacation . And now that I have told them. And I know they wont hear or see it here with out hearing it from me first, I can tell you . Things are not good with hubby and I. I am not getting it together quick enough for him since I was in the hosptial. He is feeling lost in the fact that he is tired of focusing on me and my recouperation or whatever you want to call it. He told me the other night that he is seriously thinking of a divorce. Unless I can get it together here quickly.. meaning a few months. Its over. I dont know what to do here. I am so lost. I thought I was doing pretty good ,but not good enough appearently. I feel like someone has just kicked me in the stomach and I cant catch my breath. I am so scared. What do I do? Why is this happening? Why?

Thanksfor listening.
Beth