(((( Kimmy ))))) I am so sorry for your loss and pain and how it's hard to feel the pain as you would like and need to..It can be frustrating when you have things in your head saying so many different things....You are allowed to feel both love, anger and loss at the same time. Its hard but you can.

Do you maybe feel abandoned???

Petunia note the purple face is for you.....HUGS TO YOU BOTH...I am sorry you feel bad but so glad you met one another you have a good friendship in here I see