Jen, don't stop trying. Yes, it is very hard dealing with troublesom alters. But you can make it. Keep your support close to your side and keep them posted on what is going on within you. Be sure you share the "bad" parts with T as well. That can be the hard part at times, but those pieces of information help T figure out what is going on inside. They have an outside point of view which really helps.

Wen