((((((((((((((jen)))))))))))))) i know this feels like paranoia. oh goodness do i...

i can so relate. there were times that anxiety was so high for so long that this kind of thing set in for us. under high anxiety for a long time we panic and have the unrealistic fear of being jailed! that hasn't happened for a long time, but i did happen much more than one. also, one time i had a full fledged panic attack at the hospital e.r. i was hooked up to i.v. one thing led to another and i pulled the i.v. out of my own arm and walked out of the e.r. i'd gone for a migraine. the nurse was putting meds in my arm and said, if you feel this and that call me immediately. straight after, they came and put me in a cat scan machine. everything just snowballed. i pulled out the i.v. in my "paranoid" state adn walked out seemingly calmly. my hand blew up from pulling out the i.v. so, then i panicked from that! it was horrible. afterwards, i thought they were going to send the police because i'd left the hospital. it was horrible. i called the e.r. they wanted to know what happened. said that they understood my reason for panic and assured me that it would be ok, and to come back if my magraine returned.

panic can do horrible things to the mind and body. i so understand. these events for me were few and far between thank goodness and haven't happened for years. however, when anxiety is so high for so long, panic can get so bad i think

((((((((((((((((jen)))))))))))))))))) i understand.

kd