Sorry Pup that you're going through this.

Thoughts are just thoughts. You can say to yourself, that's just my OCD. The mind is a machine, a tool for your use, always generating thoughts, some helpful, some random, some terrible. So you've got this tool that is your mind, and well, it generates these awful thoughts that you wish were gone. That's your tool's weakness. It's the thing you have to work with. But it's not you. And you are not evil. You don't want these thoughts. That is the proof. STOP taking the blame for them, and say, "Ugh, my OCD is awful." Not "I'm awful."

You aren't your thoughts. You are no more to blame for your thoughts than you'd be to blame for an unexpected porno pop-up ad. Thinking isn't doing. Thoughts don't make things happen unless you choose to act on them.