Hola. My name is John. I'm 22, and pretty much I am so depressed I can barely move. The only reason I do, is to hide the fact that I am depressed from those around me.

Sometimes I think about it, and my life doesn't seem like ****... I think I have friends, and family that care about me. I can flirt, and get people to like me.

But then I sink into a deep dark depression. My friends seemingly hate me. My family doesn't want me. I am ugly. This is how I generally feel. It sucks my motivation up as well, I don't have my license, or a job, simply because I do not have enough motivation or care enough to get them. It's tiring sometimes just rolling out of bed.

Then I think about the things in my life, and I just want to go back to bed...
The girl of my dreams that I am doomed to be close friends with for the rest of my life. My ex girlfriend I don't talk to anymore (even though she is the only one that knows the real me) The fact that I am a failure, and not good at anything... So instead I sit in online purgatory all day, and play video games just to distract myself from thinking. I have grown to despise video games, but I'm good at them, and it keeps me from being suicidal.