Wow, yesterday was a blur. After posting here, etc, I conked out on the floor for about 2-3 hours and then woke up, took a Lorazepam and crawled into bed - where I lay there in a sweat and unable to sleep for several hours. Finally, I went to sleep and slept until about 10:30 this morning, took a walk, had my coffee and then decided to take my temp. It was 99.1 so that scared me but my temp has gone up even higher than that for years. Maybe my body has just had enough. I feel like a whipped horse!.

I drank 1/2 a bottle of whiskey last night. I've decided that I don't want to drink anymore and I've prayed to God to help me deal with this and I am going to try to make a REAL effort. I know it won't be easy getting off booze. It was'nt easy the last time (shakes, sweats, horrible anxiety, panic attacks, etc) but I HAVE to do it.

To all those I may have offended last night, I am sorry. You have all been so very supportive and I can't tell you how much I appreciate it. Anyway, I just took another Lorazepam (I'm not drinking now so it's safer) and I'll just have to take one day at a time I guess.

- Regards, GreyGoose