I am sorry to say I was bragging. It was so strange it was happening for a third time. I will not stop seeing the kids though, they are everything to me. Just not show interest to John if he flirts again. I had so many feelings come up, mostly because of Mark. You ask why I am not with Mark, the friend who let me live with him, he rejected me. It was seeing a guy with the kids that reminded me of Mark, it was more about Mark than it was Jim. ( Or Johnnie.) It was like I had a family of my own when I lived there, the kids touched me soooooo deeply. Then to talk with Mark about how much we loved the kids was invigorating. No matter how many people write not to see the kids anymore, i will always, always see the kids.