i can relate to this so much. tomorrow is payday & this means doing the bill list going to store. my house is a wreck i have no motivation my mind feels scrambled & confused. all of my meds need refills including 2 new ones which i have to physically go in & drop them off cuz theyre new. well except for klonopins but doc knows im recovering addict so for now hes gotten really strict on putting refills on my bottle so i have to go in & drop it. atleast im still getting them after admitting cocaine relapse to t. i have a lab sheet for blood tests i was supposed to have done be4 my appt yesterday but never managed to do it. laundry piled up dishes piled up house plants are still sitting out on porch & we had snow mixed with rain 2day. everyone is getting ready to come in at any minute hubby at church motherinlaw kept 2 yr old allll day cuz im sick or i think im sick or i think my mind & nerves are just shot right now my dad is coming up the kids get hyper & loud hubby sits there yelling he cant hear his shows best thing is baby should be good & ready 4 bed cant buy a xanax to relax cuz i need to be good so nothing shows up on blood work which would create medication suicide 4 me right now. our temp pastor left out church who basically told the board members they will let us have a bible based na meeting there so now that hes gone theyre trying to sabotage it by making petty complaints. my husband took the key off his chain they gave us & tonite hes trying a different church. God is not there when people act snooty like this. what makes me the most mad is why dont they say it to us instead of having a gossip session & putting it on this one man to come in & sit with one of our meetings. this man has enough on him with his own family of addicts. i have yet to see any of these people but i will gently let them know how i feel. anyways i dunno i feel 4 u cuz u have a lot more irritating type stuff i guess maybe just try one thing each day better than nothing thats what i try to do when things get like this even if its just 2 chores i do