tomorrow i am scheduled to see the pdoc. today i saw t and told her my fears about seeing the doc. i am so torn as to what i am going to actually tell her. of course the t says be honest and talk to the doc, but im scared to admit the thoughts, si and the sleeping trouble that has been on going for several weeks now. i dont want to be sent to the hospital. actually i have self admitted 2 times in the past and i dont think i am at that point yet, but will the doc believe that or just cover her own butt.