Celeste, I started to cry when I read your post. I am quite cut off myself I feel but not by my doings. I just have so many things going wrong for me it feels impossible to ever get up back on top.
I had written here several months ago abou being out of work and feeling depressed and I lost this place.

I found it today and I need some help too. Please don' feel so hateful to yourself. I am not sure what is bothering you but but maybe talking about it will help you. I am at the lowest point in my life whe things should have been wonderful. My daughter could care less and that hurts.
I try to think even if I loes my home and all my treasures that I will be ok somehow and there just has to be something for me cause that is all I have left right now is me and you have to believe you aren't so bad.

Maybe look at what you dislike and ask yourself if you can change any of it in you. Try to find the good things you have done. It helps to write them down at times.
I may not be too much help right now cause I feel lost myself and for the first time have no answers to my problems. It is very dark in my little scope of what is ahead soon.
The hardest is having no familt to speak of to support you in anyway. But plenty of people have no one and they make it. I think you need a little bit of a push to come back up for air and look at some positive things about you. Come on..there must be a few things you like. Share them, talk maybe I can try to help and sure others here with the experience will help.
Your not alone and lost, not really. You may live alone and I do too but lost no, maybe confused and so uptight you can't make decisions as I feel at this point??
Talk it out here and see how it goes, I know I feel lost as to what I will do but I keep fighting for my independence and you need to also. Hang in there with me..We can do it..I think it is hard for single woman alone sometimes when we feel overwhelmed with life, money, ect. It is easy to let go and start sinking. Grab a raft and talk..I am trying too. You are not alone feeling this. Hang in there....