Funny, I was just saying to myself the other day that I was a waste of air. Those negative words you get in your head - remember that's the DEPRESSION talking, not you. Maybe it's just old tapes running and running, but the words don't describe the real you. I agree that you could have some of these traits due to C. abuse, but even tho you get tired of blaming it on that, those years just have that impact. I think maybe we could be surrounded by energy that does attract others of a certain kind, but it doesn't have to be that way. I've had 2 supportive and kindly T's, and if anyone's a waste of space, it's me. I'm very glad you posted your feelings. Wouldn't you want me to? I think it's the best of people that have the worst of trials, taunts, and negativisms chasing them If we were kick*** mean nobody could have stood to be around us long enough to abuse us! billieJ