Seeker, to answer your question no I'm not and yes you are right life is a gift, this post is to see whether or not people think life is meaningless or is it worthwhile thats all that this is, I of all people know the value of life and I cherish it, this post is not meant to upset people just make them open their eyes to what they think of life and what they want out of it thats all that this post is, and I'm sorry if I have upset you at, please accept my apology.