Psyclox, I am sad to hear you feel like your life is meaningless and nothing but pain and sorrow. Do you really think that all the years have been a zero?

I have regerts about not doing something greater in my life with work, I mena really making contribution more then I did. Now I am not even working so that is existing for me now till I run out of money.
I was married and un happy so I left and became happy. I really think I had a good life till this last year.

But I don't think anyone's life is meaningless even mine. I do feel like I have been existing and there has been no joy because there is all worry about the end of the road I am driving on financially. But I still hope even though I feel like I have failed at everything now that I am still someone and I can give if someone will give me a chance.
You can't listen to people who say your a failure, it doesn't matter what you do at least your working or giving something. Your different then someone who is married and happy and has the American Dream maybe but hey, we can't all have that but we can be happy with what we have even if it isn't much.
No, don't give up on yourself, I think you have a lot of compassion in you and much hurt about things.
Life isn't pointless even is it seems so at times.

We just have to try to make the best of it no matter what we have or don't have. I expect to be the smartest bag lady on the street soon, I am not giving up my own life line just yet and you shouldn't either.

Believe me I have some dark dark days but I have fought to make the sun shine inside of me. It isn't always easy cause really....I see no answer here, no job no nothing. But I am fighting to gain something and if I end up on the street it still won't be meaningless. I won't be happy about it but heck I am not so happy right now in me ac and bathrom and home...So I guess it is how you look at it. You will get through it and make it worthwhile if you want to and so will I...Good luck to you and be better to YOU!!