Thanks for the all the advice. I think things are slowly starting to turn around a bit between us. He has opened up to me more about how he has been feeling lately and that helps me to understand a lot. I learned so much that i did not know he was going through. He has been slacking on the job hunt because he is scared he told me and i can certainly identify well with that, but the only way to overcome the fear is to confront it. That is what i had to do when i first got a job. He also has been feeling really alone and bored a lot so not having a job is really bothering him.

One of our biggest problems is that we aren't open enough with each other. I don't always mention how i'm feeling to him cuz i don't want to fight with him or make him upset in any way and i know i'm usually in a negative mindset. He has admitted to being the same way with me. He doesn't want me to feel worse so he doesn't want to mention negative things. I told him that i would feel much worse if he wasn't open with me about his feelings though. I understand that we need to be more open in order to have a better understanding of each other though so i think it is something we can work through.

I am now attempting to get my negative thinking under control. That has interfered with our relationship the most so it'd be best to learn how to fix that. I am going to get a cognitive therapy workbook and try to do some exercises to learn more about it. If i can't figure out how to change it myself and it keeps getting worse, i'll look into seeing a therapist. I am just so tired and frustrated all the time. I don't want to keep feeling this way and thinking that my bf is against me.