Hi,
I got into some serious depression when i found that i had some miscalculations chasing my life goals.

I was actually planning to do masters after undergrad, but essentially found that it was a wrong plan. That was a surprise, as I was blind in the idea of having masters and done the things in an inferior way thinking of two more "college years" under masters...that i am away from my plans now to work towards a freelancing career.. which left me in depression..

After some months, i started catching up on my life goals, had deep thought again on how and what i am gonna do next six months and got fixed on those and started chasing. As i tried, I had even greater pain as i couldn't find my old rigor on my studies, As soon as i start reading the book, my mind will get distorted by so many silly stuffs.

What essentially makes me even more disturbed during studies, is a constant, un-reasoned sadness in the heart as if there is some weight on my chest. Which nowadays, i try to evacuate it taking deep breaths and meditation.

I don't have any confusion towards my career plan and as i see i don't have any worries regarding what i am doing now. But still this un-reasoned pain affects me much, making me seriously un-productive, when i should be on war-foots to catch up on my life goals. so Often, i'll take a deep breath, meditation and a deep thought on what is worrying me!! and will think over and over about my plans and what i am going to do and how i am going to do and why am doing this. All ok and perfect but the weight on the chest remains! . Doing exercise and meditation on a regular basis i think i am having reduced weights on my chest these days. But still i am not yet productive as i could be.

Am i seriously lacking something? or i should just proceed doing regular exercises, deep breaths and meditation and ofcourse along with my studies? ;-)

Thanks for your time!