   Hey, (((Zen))) - PMS, depression, etc. - what's the diff - we can handle anything here. There's nothing wrong with throwing a little hissy fit  now and then to release the tension. It's not that you're really all that upset about the specific things you mentioned - it's just that the slight irritation about those things tapped into that larger lake of anger, frustration, and anxiety deep inside. It's just magma rising to the surface through any little crack or crevice it can find.
Be sure to STAY AWAY from SALT right now. Makes the effects of PMS 100X worse. Can you go out and take a walk to release some of that energy and pump some endorphines into you? Trying to force yourself to read or concentrate on anything right now is probably only going to increase your anger and negative thinking. Walk away from it - breaking the atmosphere by changing your environment even for a little while can sometimes help. Or maybe even beating up a pillow or cushion can help.
Just don't try to force a lid on to your feelings right now - they'll just build up even more pressure and you'll blow up bigger later. Let it out a little as you go. Keep posting, too, if that helps.
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"I walked a mile with Pleasure; she chattered all the way, But left me none the wiser for all she had to say. I walked a mile with Sorrow and ne'er a word said she; But oh, the things I learned from her when Sorrow walked with me!"
(Robert Browning Hamilton; "Along The Road")
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