I'd like to be able to help you with ALL of the issues that you've presented. However it's too much for me to process. I can say that I identify with a lot of what you are going through but, I just don't know where to start. Maybe you could start with your biggest issue and go from there. Maybe you aren't able to do that and I could certainly understand that too. I just wish there was more that I could say.

I'm sorry you're feeling this way and I hope things turn around for you.